sigh....

you weren't supposed to see that blog. only because i didn't think you'd take it the right way.

there are sparks. there are still butterflies. but it wasn't there before we had our talk. we needed to have that talk because now we both know where we stand and what we want and what is important to us. i didn't know what you wanted or needed or if we were even on the same page. you never talked to me to tell me any of the things you told me that night.

you do believe me don't you? i want the same things you want. i want you to be part of my life and learn all there is to know about me, just like i want to know about you. i love hearing your stories about your past and what you were like and the things you did and i want to to know the things you want for now and for the future. but i didn't know then if this was something that you want or don't want to talk about. if it is too much or too little. i was going by what you were showing me and for a while, i felt like i was alone in this.

but we are ok now, aren't we? i feel closer to you after last week. i don't want you to feel left out when i am quiet. i don't want you to feel like i want to leave when we argue. i don't want you to think or feel anything BUT the fact that i'm not going anywhere.