30's just a number, right?

right, k.. so today is the last day of my 20's.. kinda overwhelming. don't know why since nothing is gonna change really. i'll still feel the same when i wake up tomorrow, still will look the same. prolly feel the same too.

well, ok maybe not everything will stay the same. i have a new resolution. my 30th bday resolution. everything forward. spent my 20's looking back, missing too many people and too much of my past. so i am going to look forward and not back now that i am 30. bloody hell, everything is so much easier said than done. anyone want to bet i will fall off that wagon quite quickly?

i think the reason i am apprehensive about the whole number 3-0 is that.. i keep thinking of the things i have and have not done since i discovered i have free will. i don't have a lot of regrets. i am not gonna lie and say i don't have any. but i don't dwell on them (well ok, i won't dwell on them). i did some stuff that i have always wanted to do and did all on my own so it's not like i didn't accomplish anything significant. it's just that.. i keep thinking of that time when i was in my teens and i thought people in their 20's were so sophisticated and i could not wait to be one of them. tsk. kids, i tell ya. so impressionable. but i loved being 27. i think that is so far, my favorite year. argh. i will be checking a different age box on questionnaires from now on!!

just need to do some tweaking with the state i am in and everything should be a-ok. well, nothing really goes as planned but here's hoping!

so.. 8 hours and 15 minutes more before the milestone. not counting at all.